frustration

10 May

After spending last week sick with Bronchitis, I reached about Thursday morning and had met an all new level of frustration in my life. I was in the shower, crying out to God, with a heart not settled, and a mind unsatisfied. I realized that I was in a place that I felt I was losing control over so many areas and I hated the helpless feeling I was feeling. (Okay, so do I really have any “control” anyways?)

  • I was frustrated by the lack of cleanliness of my home – laundry not caught up. Laundry never caught up! Toys strewn across the floor of most rooms. Surfaces and corners that could use a good scrubbing. Argh!
  • I was frustrated by my attitude I had lately with my children. Rather than getting patient and calm mommy, they were getting impatient, irritable, short mommy. Didn’t like that. I found myself saying no so often throughout the day without any reason why my answer was no to them. I made mountains out of mole hills and forgot to pick and choose my battles. Ick.
  • As if those two areas weren’t enough to be frustrated about, I was frustrated with my attitude towards my husband. Indifference, irritability, and selfishness were traits I was exhibiting rather than love, concern, and patience.
  • I was frustrated by my body. Sure I’m pre-3-baby-pregnancy weight minus a pound or two more, but how fit am I? My clothes are tighter and things have definitely moved around. How does that happen?! I don’t like what I see in the mirror, but I also don’t do anything about it. I’m a relatively healthy eater, but I can never seem to find time or energy in my day to exercise. At one point I was working out 4 days a week and felt and looked great. But that was a season ago, one less kid, and a few less responsibilities. Ugh.

As I looked further, I realized that at the heart of everything I was frustrated with were my lack of time with God and my lack of time in His word. As I’ve thought on that a few days, I’ve come to realize that when I feel the most frustrated in my life, it’s because I’ve lost sight of my priorities, gotten disorganized, and aren’t living in His grace. This is both refreshing and overwhelming. Refreshing because okay, that sounds like a plan. We can work through this with a plan! But overwhelming at the same time because where do I start at getting back on track? What things are most important? How do I reconcile the important ones with the ones that gotta-get-done?

(1) I need to realize I can’t get it all done. And that’s OKAY. Some days some things will take priority and some days it will be others.

(2) Prioritize. Make lists. To-dos. Get organized. I work so much better this way. I need to purge some things in my life that take time away from the things I need to be doing. But at the same time I need to balancing work with fun and rest.

(3) Stay focused on God’s word and scripture. A sure way to encourage me and remind me daily of His power to get it done.

Finding a balance can be so difficult. Usually the times are simply seasons and we must adjust and transition to the next but, do you ever feel this way friends? What things have you found helpful in not becoming frustrated?

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13 Responses to “frustration”

  1. Rick May 10, 2011 at 7:55 am #

    In our house, I’ve tried to tell my wife that we will survive if she’s down. We’ll usually do the best we can with the cleanliness part, but in my mind if everyone’s still alive at bedtime, that’s a win for me. 🙂 Hope you’re feeling better.

    • chellejd May 10, 2011 at 10:34 pm #

      You’re such an understanding guy! Great perspective. And thanks, I am on the mend with some good antibiotics and steroids. 🙂

  2. Marlo May 10, 2011 at 10:47 am #

    Love your honesty!!! Its so great!!! Just know you are not alone!!! I look foward to the blog because I know I am not alone!!! Hope this week is better!

    • chellejd May 10, 2011 at 10:34 pm #

      Thanks Marlo! We always had a lot in common! xo

  3. Jennifer Ray May 10, 2011 at 12:51 pm #

    Thanks so much for your great post! You’ve inspired me to write my own post about frustration and finding time for God. Hope things are going better for you!

    • chellejd May 10, 2011 at 10:35 pm #

      Thanks Jennifer! I look forward to reading it. I am feeling better, thanks!

  4. bonnie May 10, 2011 at 7:48 pm #

    i feel like i was reading a page out of my own journal. i guess if we are honest most moms feel this way some times. i find myself saying…. if i just had more time do paint, or more time to keep up with the house, or more of this, or less of that, then i will have it all together and be happy and be a great mom and wife and child of God. but then i realize the thing that i need the MOST is more time with my lord. if i carve out my time with him he will satisfy me in ways that nothing or no one else can….. so why oh why do i have to keep coming back to this. i am just wondering in the desert and forget of gods grace so often.
    thanks for sharing

    • chellejd May 10, 2011 at 10:36 pm #

      Glad that God used my words to speak to you Bon. I love sharing this journey of life with you in this little corner of the web. You’re so right! xo

  5. alison May 10, 2011 at 9:21 pm #

    i’m sorry….but i was totally unaware that i had been cloned! good graciousness, i felt like i was reading a page out of my life as it is RIGHT now. it was almost scary reading this! word.for.word. i am so glad i hopped onto blogger tonight and now i’m going to hop off and go do my Bible reading that i overslept and missed out on this morning. 🙂

    • chellejd May 10, 2011 at 10:37 pm #

      Oh Alison! Thanks for reading. I hope the words were an encouragement to you. I hope God spoke to you in your time with Him. xo

  6. Tigpan May 12, 2011 at 7:32 am #

    Chelle, this is EXACTLY where I am today. Well where I’ve been for a few days. AFter this move which was discouraging to my heart for several reasons, I have found it hard to get settled in…to find balance to find time…to sleep…and especially to spend time with the One who loves me most. Thank you for your openness and honesty here….now headed off to spend time with my Father! ❤ you!

  7. Katie May 16, 2011 at 7:05 pm #

    I just identify with this down to the letter. Thanks for your transparency. Girl, I’m right there with you. Wish I had some wisdom, but sometimes just the camaraderie and support of some sisters who are walking alongside you may be enough to lift your spirits a bit. Grace and peace to you.

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